Do you ever have one of those days where you’re barely hanging on? By a thread. To your sanity.
I am having one of those days.
It started out well enough, I woke up had my favorite coffee, did my Bible study and devotions which were especially good this morning and new truths were revealed to me. Something I had struggled with for a long time was finally made clear to me and it made some sense to an issue that is very troubling. After that I texted with a friend and my sister, and then suddenly out of nowhere my good mood was gone and this darkness settled over me.
This horrible darkness that told me my whole life had been a waste. That whispered it would be so much easier to just end things and then my struggle would be gone. I know we’re not supposed to talk about those things, it makes people uncomfortable, but I don’t think I’m the only one who has ever had those thoughts either. So maybe we should talk about them. Then when Satan is whispering that in our ear and the tears are pouring down our face, we can tell him to get away and leave us alone. That we are NOT alone in our struggles. That everyone has days like these and it will pass. That we don’t want to be gone from this world. That better days are coming and we would miss them.
Sometime later, I was feeling a little better. I could see things clearer and realize everything that was overwhelming me before wasn’t as bad as it seemed. The problem is that in the moment, it’s hard to remember that. So keep some good friends ready to help you when that happens. Don’t be too ashamed to speak out. That is how you will feel better. By interacting with someone else who can point out to you that it is not as bad as it seems. This is what I did. I texted a friend and told her exactly how I was feeling. The ugly truth of it. She didn’t tell me not to feel that way, she did point out that Satan is a liar. She also pointed out that Heaven is coming to those who struggle and that in the end it will be so worth the struggle. That the things and values of this world will no longer be what we are measured by. That we will find out that the people who seemed the most successful and the happiest were really not.
Life is good and my focus has once again been changed. Take hope dear readers! You don’t have to stay stuck in that awful moment.
*If you are suffering from depression, I encourage you to get professional help if it lasts longer than a few days and you have are having thoughts of suicide.
The Suicide Prevention Hotline phone number is: 1-800-273-8255
There is also a suicide prevention website: suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
And a number to text: Text “TalkWithUs” to 66746
You matter, people do care about you, please get help.